2011 ! ♥

It's year 2011 dudes ! And what an unexpected NewYear's eve & NewYear ! Although its abit late for a new year post but im too lazy and kept procastinating ! Laughs . Anyway my new year resolutions this year are to be more optimistic, become stronger & more independent, and lastly i hope to pay off all my debts ! But most importantly "i wanna be the girl who didnt give a heck about guys, when her friends & freedom was everything she needs . Let me that girl again in 2011 !"

On new year's eve, went to fetch B first in the afternoon, then hanged out with his friends and him for awhile before heading to resort world for dinner with my family . Dinner had me stuffed up till my neck ! Headed to vivo to meet my hunies (Bren, Nuu, Jose) and Shawn afterwards and "count-eddown" there . Funny part was we didnt realised it was going to be 0000 till everyone stood up and shouted "5, 4, 3, 2, 1 !" and we were all so clueless ! Everyone was so busy hugging each other and wishing "Happy New Year" and we were just standing there . Laughs . But still it was lovely seeing them after so darn long . Simply love them lots . Headed to boat quey to find B and made a pit stop to clarkquey to visit Shihao . Regretted that decision . He made me freakin upset . Totally ruined my day and i just walked away . Anyways went to V3 for the first time and it was quite fun ! Finally headed back in the morning . Overall, this year's NewYear was great and hopefully the year will be too !

School's started and what a drag . Have been skipping classes again too . Ugh . Will try to work harder ! Results wasnt fantastic, expected better . But seeing my friends makes everything bearable .

Havent seen J for more than a week now . Wonder if he misses me . Laughs . Bet he doesnt though . Seeing him again this friday and am kinda excited cause i dont know how im gonna feel when i see him . My feelings for him have had taken a turn and he doesnt know it yet . Bet he doesnt care anyways . Laughs . Kinda touched though that he bought me the wooden bangles i wanted . On another note, i fear that im falling in love . I know that i cant fall in love cause i'll end up hurt again . So hopefully im able to restrict myself . Gonna start dancing again to keep myself occupied . What a long post this is . Laughs .

P.S. Finally got the courage to snip off my long hair ! Didnt regret it since almost everyone says it's nicer . Hehheh . I wish he belongs to me but i know she's definitely better so hope that they'll be happy yea . (:

P.P.S. I've had enough of boys for now .

X'mas !

Katharine McPhee - It's Not Christmas Without You

Years almost over

Sure looks like December

The snow and ice on the ground

I hadn't sent a single Christmas card

The 31st is coming around

It makes me remember our last December

How the city looks so beautiful in white

As we walked the street that day you kept me warm

We couldn't wait to get inside

Now its Christmas and you're so far away

On this Christmas I just wished you had stayed

And i wonder if you're thinking of me today

I don't know what I'll do its not Christmas without you

I hear carols in the distance

Don't want to listen because every sound says your not here

Just in case you change your mind I'll leave a light over the door

And hope you suddenly appear

Cause its Christmas and you're so far away

On this Christmas I just wish you had stayed

And I wonder if you're thinking of me today

I don't know what I'll do its not Christmas without you

I'm too old to believe in Santa Claus

What are these gifts under the tree

But i did this once

Or maybe it's a dream, has he really brought you back to me

Its Christmas all i wanted is here

On this Christmas was for you to be near

And i wonder if you're thinking of me cause you're here

My one wish has come true, it's not Christmas without you

Happenings

Keh I admit im supah zilian-ish and have too much time to spare . ;x Hehheh .

Havent been updating in a while . Have been wanting to update but im simply too lazy and there are just TOO much things to write ! MST's lika coming ! SOOO fast can ! Grrr .

Since my last post, many events had passed ; birthdays, outings, school, etc . There's just too much people's birthdays this month . SUPAH LOT CAN ! Im always dreading this month cause i'll always turn broke so fast this ! 4 of my sweeties had their birthdays this month as well .

Nureen ; Shuqi ; Roshini ; Ellisa

(Okeh the quality super lousy but i simple couldnt find a decent photo of either of them !

This is the best ler laa !)

Managed to celebrate Rosh and Qi 's birthday with them and i hope they had fun ! (: Couldnt celebrate for Nuu and Elle due to their Alevels but hope they had a nice birthday nonetheless and will make it up to them after their A's ! Have been friends with Qi & Elle since i was 13 and Nuu & Rosh since 15 . Love them to bits laa !

Anways, besides birthdays, 2 other school events i've join were the interaction race and also volunteering for the kindergarten graduation thingy . The interaction race was a-okay and we got third place plus a 20dollars capital land voucher each so not bad laa . Hehheh . But my stamina really cui ttm ! Have to start exercising ler ! The kindergarten thingy was really tiring ! Didnt know looking after a few kids could be SOO exhausting can ! But it was fun cause the kids are really supah dupah adorable laa ! I could hug them forever can ! *Squeals* Ohh, thru the volunter also managed to know Gabriel who looks like Cheehao alot can ! But Cheehao more shuai of course . Hehheh .

Also went rebel and zirca on Yuwen's birthday for the first time . I like(Y) ! I like rebel and zirca more than powerhouse laa ! Lol . Dance-d lika super lot that night and had fun ! I think i dance-d abit too wild ler, now that i think about it . *Laughs*

Know alot of new people and made alot of new friends this month ! I love making new friends and enlarging my social circle . Haha . Am especially glad to make this one particular friend can ! I think i have a crush ! *Shy* But too bad you're attached ! ): It's okeh cause im happy just being able to talk to you at times . It's kinda exciting even if it's a one-sided thing . Just hoping you will notice me at least . (:

Strength

I will get over this .
I will be strong .
I dont wanna be taken for granted anymore .
It's not worth it and i know it .
I hope i will have the strength to walk through this alone .
I wanna break free from this so badly .

Random-ish

My body clock is seriously screwed !
Everyday reach home lika take short naps ,
then cannot fall asleep at night !
Imma having such an abnormal lifestyle .
Eyerings are getting worser also .
FML .
Next time go out people will scream ,
"Omg ! There's a panda on the loose !"
Kay imma so lame .

I wonder if i should go back to punk .
Vey long since i dressed punk-ly ler .
Kinda miss those hardcore days .
So freedom man .

School's a drag .
Seriously damn sian .
Cannot pay attention in lectures at all .
Keep lika sleep sleep and sleep only .

Kay dontknow tmrw should wear heels to school not .
Scared lika will damn hiao ley . ):
Still thinking to whether should go audition .
Got people make up for me lika damn naise ley .
Hehheh .
I lika being pwetty .

From Hols - School

Schools lika started kay ! School sucks ttm . Kay before schools started , there was lika alot of events . Shall sumarize ---

First of all would of course be the "class chalet" but not my class of course ; Wanyi's or should i say 5A class chalet . Imma lika the only one who dont come from 5A . Starting i feel so lika an outsider ! But after awhile it was okeh . Chalet was fun . Especially the part when the guys got drunk and began doing stupid things . Laughs . Overall was not bad . I even went swimming in my hot bikini ! *Shy*

Then would be the outing with LY and Rebbie . Caught Charlie St. Cloud and Buried one after the other . Buttock cramp man ! Charlie St. Cloud was naise ! And i cried laa ! Laughs . Buried was a-okeh ley . I find it not bad but LY and Rebbie says it wasnt naise . After that we went to yellojello to visit K and S . Rebbie was so kewt , being so shy and all . Laughs again . Since non of us were good drinkers , we only drank lychee margarita, sex on the beach, shirley temple and an unexpected shooter blowjob . K made all the drinks and it was really naise (Y) . But was so guilty cause didnt expect that he would treat us . *Thank kew K !* Waited for K to finish work before heading down to Hans for late late late supper / breakfast and a lil drama between LY and the cab driver happened in between . Home-d after that and it was really an awesome outing . ;DD

The following days were catching movies and supposedly outings with Kaijie&clique as well as with Tracy&Mel . But didnt managed to eat the crystal jade buffet with Kj&clique, only went bowling afterwards with them but still it was really fun ! Hadnt bowled for a reeeeally long time . But outing with Tracy&Mel was cancelled . Hope next time would have a chance again . Then the last day before school starts, went shopping with my babe SQ . Spent ALOT of moneh even though lika didnt buy much laa . But still was naise ~

PS .

Havin' mixed up feelings right naw . Cringed at the word "ex" today when you said it . Have absolutely no idea what you take me for . I guess you could say im your biatch but not your lover . Imma fool .

Coolios & Fate

I hope you dont fall for me .

28th Sept 2010 : My girl LimYing's Birthday !

Even though there wasnt a big "celebratoral" but i hoped LY had fun cause i had fun ! Town-ed and manicure-d ! (: A first M18 movie for our big girl was 'Orphan' which we watched in chamber . Camwhore-d with the girls - LY and Rebecca - after the movie . Took a hell load of pictures ! Wanna apologise to LY for not getting her a gift cause i was at a financial crisis myself . Lol . But at least we got her a cake ! Cheese camp ! Had no clue why the cake's called cheese camp but what the heck , at least it was naise ! ;DD Picture after picture were taken then it was time for LY and R to head home . R had to take a cab since there's no bus already . Two guys said "Bye Bye" to her as she head into the cab and i think she finds the tall-io kinda handsome . Hahaha ! Took peektures with LY as we waited for her bus and we realised the 2 guys were looking at us camwhore-d only today ! LOL ! The 3 of them later took the same bus and also LY even got a free cab ride home . Haha ! What an epic moment of the night .

I went to find YW afterwards at cuppage . There were BY JG and Jer too . Then all of us went for k-session till dawn again . Haha ! Had fun nonetheless but i was really tired . Lol .

29th Sept 2010 :

Planned to stay home but after a call from YW complaining he was bored out of his wits , i was out of the house at midnight . Thumbs up for me man . Haha . Initial plan was to chill at boat quay but in the end we headed for clark quey along with S and J . Due to "someone" wearing slippers , we decided to go to yello jello since there doesnt have an attire requirement . And i think somehow fate wanted me to go there . LOL ! The 'tallio' and the friend was lika working there laa ! The 'tallio'/LinLe came to check my IC but i didnt recog him ! Then his friend/Kevin texted me saying i never said hi or etc to him . And i was stunned ! Haha . Headed to the bar then to chat awhile with him . Texted LY immediately afterwards to tell her of this fated encounter . Lol . Then YW send me home and we chilled at cck for a lil while . Once again i had fun . (:

P.S.

It's amazing how fast everything changes . A while ago we were so busy falling in love . And a while later you're so busy falling out of love . And im so busy trying hard to do the same .