Lately?

Its been way way waaaay long since i've last blogged. So many darn things have happened since Feb. First of all, my year end examinations, then comes my birthday, then ITP, then results, then end of ITP, then start of school - which is right now where i am. Where to begin. Everything is just so overwhelming.

Was kinda boring for march since nothing exciting nor interesting happened. Basically, its just work work and more work. I had my attachment at the airport at Nuance-Watson so practically, everyday's routine was just work and home. B-O-R-I-N-G. Heh.

Well, life's been kinda stagnant for me. No ups and downs for anything lately. I CRAVE FOR EXCITEMENT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! Laughs. Its kinda a good thing for me. With what i've been going through for the past six months. Having been struggling with my emotions and feelings. This stagnant life is feeling for me. Well, at least i've been busy meeting my friends. Absolutely love them ttm! Love how we never fail to laugh our heads off when we hang. Awesome feeling. Sure would be fabulous if we could stay friends forever. It's just amazing how even though im not meeting them as much now due to being in different schools and courses etc, but somehow when all of us meet up once in a blue moon, the connection is still there. Its like, there will never be an awkwardness between us. And i love how amazing and comfortable we feel around each other. Will always love my girls! Im refering to Shuqi Yy Rosh and Ruonan btw. Heh.

Speaking of excitement, okay so come to the start of april, i met this reeeeally cute guy. Not exactly met but i sort of noticed him at work. Laughs. There i go again, being this hua chi girl. *Knocks the head.* But he doesnt seemed the relationship kind of guy so oh well. Too bad. Heh. Right now, i just wanna enjoy being single. For now, i just wanna focus on pampering myself first. Im gonna be oh-so-fine.

Oh did i mention i bought 200plus worth of makeup from MAC and Bobbi Brown? Laughs. I couldnt resist buying so much cause they were so darn cheap cause of the tax free prices PLUS the 25 percent staff discount! *Screams!* Thats the only thing im gonna miss from working at the airport. THE PRICES. Laughs.

Its February .

Events after events for the month of feb . First there was CNY , then there's taylor's concert , followed by Valentine's and finally , the arrival of the dreaded exams . Cny was not bad this year , not bad at all . Collected quite alot but unfortunately , i'll have to say all those money didnt belong to me . ): Then there's taylor's concert . It was really awesome ! She's freaklishly tall ! 179 to be exact . She's really quite cool . Love her even more after the concert . She sings not bad indeed .

Next its Valentine's . Well , i had an unexpected valentine's day . Plus an unexpected valentine's gift . From an expected someone . Spent valentine's day with J and his polyfriends AND their dates (which are their respective bfs & gf) . We had steamboat and initially , i didnt wanna go when J asked me but im glad i did . I had a nice time with them . They're all really nice people . But they thought i was "dao" . Which i wasnt in fact , that was probably my way of being shy . Laughs . A really unexpected gift from J too . He surprised me with a citigems necklace . 128 dollars . Since knowing him , its the first time he bought such an expensive gift to me . Well , it was quite expensive for him . I didnt get him anything of course since i didnt expected a gift . Well , i could tell he was a teeny disappointed with me going empty handed but you cant blame me . When we're together , it was always me with the gifts and never him . So it was totally shocking of him to give me anything . Anyways im real happy to receive it . I promise i'll get him something in return .

Now exams are around the corner . In fact , tomorrow's my first paper . DAMN ! And i havent start studying . Cries ! Anyways good luck to myself and to everyone who's hating the exams ! Its gonna be over sooon ! Then its time for my birthday . Heh .

P.S : I hate how i always falls for the guys who will never love me back . It's really hurting . How i wish i didnt know how to love .

I Will ;

I miss you .

I WILL FALL FOR A BOY WHO WILL ;

* Stand out in the rain with me .

* Cook with , or for me .

* Let me sing along to the radio .

* Keep surprising me .

* Watch movies with me on lazy days .

* Remember the little things .

* Help me face my fears .

* Start play-fights with me -

with water , or food , or pillows , or anything .

* Write me post-it love letters .

* Always say what's on his mind .

* Let me wear his clothes .

* Shut me up with kisses .

* Call me things like darling , not babe .

* Hug me and say , "No , you're not ," when i say i'm fine .

* Treat me , sometimes , like a child .

* Treat me , sometimes , as an adult .

* Love me back .

P.S. I'm not amazing at anything , i'm just okay at everything .

It frustrates me more than anything .

"Old" Days

Okay i reelly reelly REElly miss the "old" days . Nostalgia's like overwhealming me right now .

Especially after chatting with WH these few days, i found that i really had many awesome and wonderful memories ! If i could give up everything and return to the past, i really would do so again . And most importantly, i wouldnt have wanted anything to change . I wanna relive these awesome days again ! I thought getting in to bbss would be a wrong decision but now, i know that its the best decision to be made ! I think i have the best schoolmates in the whole wide world man ! Laughs . Be it teary, laughing or angry moments, they were all wonderful . Every little detail of them . Ahhh ! I miss bbss !

Falling Hard .

Mood : Super fcuked up .

*Pardon my language*

Shouldnt even care . Damn . What was i to say ? What do you expect me to say ? What am i supposed to do ? Seriously . Am i supposed to feel happy ? Happy that you're telling me that you don't feel a thing when hugging her ? Laughs . You said you miss me , yea , so what . But you're with her right now . And so you said you wanna hug me . Yea , so what again ? But you're hugging her right now . And you said but i want you more . Laughs laughs laughs . Seriously how ironic can one get . Kay im super pissed off right now . Just wanna rant thats all .

You said "Sorry" . You told me you knew i were upset . And i told you "No im not" . I really wonder if you believed that . Or just pretended to . Honestly , i hate how everything you do affects me right now . It used to not mattered . But it does now . Damn . Seriously , DAMN . And almost , just almost , when you walked away , did my tears fell . But i managed to hold it in . It just aint worth it . I know i aint nothing compared to her . She's perfect ; im not .

Its funny how i always tend to fall for guys that i know will hurt me . Is this karma ? Laughs . Its not like im super ugly and lousy that no guys want me . Yet i always end up choosing the road where i know im sure to fall badly .

I wanna see you so bad .

Wed and Counting .

Love & Other Drugs
Caught this movie ytd, or should i say the day before with LY&R . Fab love Anne Hathaway ! She is so freaking gorgeous ! And her tits are simply nice ! Im not being pervertic here . Believe me, you simply cant take your eyes off her fabulous body if you saw ! Was in awe though that she actually bare everything in the movie . And such intimate scenes she took with Jake Gyllenhaal ! I really wonder if he was turned on when Anne was lying naked on top of him . Laughs . (Im not a pervert !) Anyway it was a nice movie and everyone should totally watch it ! I would say 9/10 !

On the same day, wed, had a string of emotions and blah blah blah, so i decided to do a manicure to pamper myself . Tried the new arrivals and my nails are even more beautiful than me right now . No im exaggerating actually . But my nails are nice ! But why do i feel that they've already cracked ! NOO ! I just had them for like a 1 day plus ! Havent tried pedicures before . Shall get them one day ! But somehow the thought of letting strangers touching my feet and the possibility of them smelling the odour of it simply shudders me .

One more thing : I hate LY&R for not being able to put themselves in my shoes and for scolding me till im even more stressed up !

Nah i dont really hate 'em . Laughs . I wanna thank them for loving me so much instead yea ! Sorry im always making y'all worrying ! I know im always in a mess ! I will learn to be stronger yea ! Really appreciate both of 'em . Will always love 'em ! *Pinky promise and copy that !*

PS :

It's only been around 3 weeks since i've snipped my hair and im soooo missing it ! It was soooo difficult for me to grow them man ! Cries ! Look at how long it used to be ! *looks at picure above* Alright so it isnt really super duper long but it's still very long to me ! When will i ever grow them back again ?! I miss tying up my hair !

P.P.S : Less than 12 hours and counting down awayyyyyy !

The Best Things ♥

I think, the best and most precious things in life are:

big warm hugs
passionate kisses
the smell of rain
daydreaming
walking through a field of wildflowers
laughing
smiles from anyone, particularly strangers
soft cushy pillows

and lastly,
being loved . (: