One more reason why secondary life is much loved than poly:

17.1. I MISSS BRENDA SITTING BESIDE ME AND CALLING ME TO WAKE UP TO LISTEN TO TEACHER ! ;DD

Saturday 27th June:

Celebrated weixi's birthday today . WOOO ! Finally she's seventeen ! Went to iluma's empire state to eat . Present was Yuenleng , Shihui , Weixi ( of course ) , Liqing , me and J . Qishan joined us afterwards at far east . Wanted to go early to decorate the birthday cake at jurongpoint with sh , yl and lq but as usual , was slowly preparing and was being late so went to bugis to meet them . Heh heh . We shared the cost of a KAREN MOK PERFUME as a gift to wx cause she wanted that . LOL . Sh was the physically birthday girl , she damn DAMN high . Wx was the mentally one . Haha . Hope you had fun babe . Happy happy birthday ! Woohoo !
Pictures :

One look ^ , you will THINK that sh is the bday girl . Haha.

I've been staying home for almost two days ! Yesterday and today . The trip to the clinic was not counted . Lol . I think im going insane . Have been thinking , im kinda regretting taking up the current course . I have other better choices actually . Haha . Nyway i wasnt that satisfied with my olevel results . I know i could've done better . But it's too late to regret already right ? I remember breaking down when i first saw my o results . And he was shocked to see me crying . Some dumbo even have the cheek to think i was crying cause i was too happy . Haha . Hated crying . Whenever i cry , its feel that im not in control of myself . If i cant even control myself , who can ? Lol . Nyway , i havent even started on my report ! Damn . I am like so so dead . Dont even know where to start from . Ugh . I'll start tonight . Hopefully .

IM SICK AGAIN ! Argh ! Went to the doctor today and i have five different medicines that i need to eat . Hais . But dont worry , i dont have the swine flu . Haha . Alot of things happened in the past few days . Just realised that recently , arguments and disappointments keep occurng between J and me . I dont want anything to change . Yet , cant help but feel that something has changed . But just havent found out what is it yet . It could just be that im thinking too much anyway . Hopefully everything will get better for us . Let me stay strong . Let's create more laughter instead of tears yea ?

It's been a while since i last talked or saw qin . He have to wear a rolex on his ankle for three months . Haha . I dont know how he always know what am i thinking . He was right that im just trying to occupy myself so that i wont ponder about unhappy things . Lol . I will take care yea ? And he's a great friend , like a brother to me .

My grandaunt passed away at around four to five am in the morning today . Mom told me of the news as soon as i woke up . At least now she dont have to suffer anymore . It was heartbreaking for her family to see her in so much pain in the hospital . Rest in peace grandaunt .

Friday 19th June - Saturday 20th June:

Went to sentosa with J's clique/friends . They have a so-called class gathering at sentosa and also at the same time , i have a primary school class gathering at sentosa as well . What a coincidence . Anyway those who went were me , cheehao , layfang , beehoon , beehong , wanyi , helena , jasmine , peijun , adrian , kaijie , eric , yeehong , zaiqiang , kianhwee , chunhoo and liangming . For my primary class gather , im not sure but there were only a few that went so i joined J and friends mostly . More fun as well . We played a lot of games : volleyball , basketball , captain'sball and also 'water-bombing' . Haha . Had a tremendous time ! I even went suntanning ! Woohoo !

Everyone went home to pack their stuff for the steamboat and tonning at wanyi's granny's house at around six to seven . By the time the steamboat started , everyone was so dead and exhausted after a day at the beach . Also , i think instead of dinner , the steamboat was a late night supper . Lol . Overall it was awesome and the only bad thing was the sunburn . Argh ! It's killing me !

Continued - 20th June:

Went to my sister's party at clark quey . Was held at her workplace . Her friends so-called became my babysitters . Had a few drinks and my face got SO red that everyone thought i was drunk but i wasnt . It's the blood circulation ! Lol . Was asked to sit with yasel's friend and his cousin at a table to stop me from drinking . Well , guofeng(the cousin) showed a few tricks or magic tricks which was really entertaining . He performed the tricks with a dice , a cigarette and of course the famous deck of cards . He taught me a few tricks as well . Astounding ! Shall practice and show it to everyone ! Hahahaha !

Went to look for J after that at around 3am . Wow . Late late late . Though i may seemed reluctant to go but i really wanted to see him and i missed him so badly . Sorry for everything baby . I didnt mean to upset you . Shouldnt have said what i'd said about the relationship thing . Even if i have to cry a river for you , i would do so no matter what ! Love you .

Since im seventeen , here are SEVENTEEN reasons why i love secondary life more (than poly) .

1. I have uniforms then . In the past , i used to take only five minutes to get dress but now , i take ONE HOUR to choose my daily outfits ! What a drag .

2. Instead of me changing classrooms , the teachers are the ones doing the walking . I can relax in the the comfort of my seat while waiting for them to arrive .

3. I no longer have beloved yingying to accompany me to school everyday .

4. My table used to be my drawing paper where i can express myself . Now i dont even have my own table . Lol .

5. Detentions were my favourite pasttime then . The detention classroom was my second home .

6. No more brenda's mom's homemade "ji dan gao" which was very bright green in colour .

7. Hanging out after school with shuqi and friends at the void deck almost everyday are long gone . That goes for eating 7-eleven's instant food or playing iceman together .

8. Everyone knows everyone back then . Everywhere you go , there are people you know . Everyone used to be closer . Now , the school is just too large , it's difficult to even see a familiar face a day .

9. Miss having to help brenda avoid a certain r by taking the long way .

10. Birthday cakes were enjoyed in class once in a while .

11. I miss ellisa's SUPER LOUD chatter ! Which can be heard miles away .

12. The parrot family and Big Mouth Company ! Ahh ! They are so dearly miss ! LOL . It was them who made the class so much more fun ! With all their crap !

13. Cassie ! When was the last time we mimic accents during biology class ?!

14. Seriously , i miss singing mari kita and saying the pledge in the mornings.

15. My fares were half-priced ! Now is adult price ! Steep !

16. It was either sleeping or munching during lesson time for me . Ahhh . The good old days .

17. I just miss everyone so much !

Friday 12th June :
Finally after what seems like decades , i've met up with my darlings ! Lol . Went to marina square with shuqi , ying square , rosh and ruo nan today . It was so great ! It's been ages since i saw them and it feels so wonderful to get together again . Went to watch the hannah montana / miley cyrus movie . I'll rate it a 2.5 over 5 . The main guy was charming (Lucky Miley) ! But the movie was so dramatic and predictable . One suitable word would be cliche but movies are always like that . The songs are still the best parts . Haha . After the movie , they accompanied me to shop for my bikini . I urged them to help me ask the staff whether could i try the bikini since i was shy . Ruonan went to approached some guys and asked " Can my friend try on the bikinis ? " Turned out the guys werent staffs of the shop and they were in awe when ruonan asked them . I dont know how to put this but their expressions were extremely hilarious ! LOL . Nyway , i bought one finally and managed to fulfill my new year's resolution for this year . Woohoo ! Aha . Went to vivo after everything to wait for J to knock off and to just see him for a while . Miss him so badly .

Here are the photos we took today ..

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Trust . The word keeps appearing in my mind , driving me nuts for the past few days . Has anyone ever fully trust someone ? Can someone really trust ? I just feel that this word bears so much responsibiliy on it . To see someone trying to hide something from me when it wasnt even something major just annoys me . I wasnt even interested . Was there even a basic trust ? ):

Everything is being replayed once again . I fear history would repeat itself . I dont know whether i would be able to handle it this time . What once made you cry will someday make you smile . But will what once made me smile , make me cry one day ?

Why is it that suddenly, i feel like im lost ? I thought i had already pieced together the puzzle , then all of a sudden , the picture shattered just like that . My heart sank . A pretty picture was hung before me , then as time passes , slowly the top colours ran then another picture showed , a question mark .

Here are the pictures taken on Sunday o7th June !

The heap of food we ate . Take note: We ate two packets of the stingray and lala ! xDD

Dance auditions today . Yea i was nervous and all ! I missed a beat during the choreo ! Oh man . Haha . Well , its over nyway . Results came out already and well , as expected i didnt get in . If i say i aint sad , i'll be lying of course . But life still moves on right ?! Lol . Jiayou to me ! Shall post pictures next time . Ciaos .

Sunday 07 June:
Weeee ! Met up with Limying and Rebecca at vivo . Supposed to go for this underage party thing at St James but something happened and we didnt went . Nyway i didnt really want to go , so it was fine for me . Haha . Walked around vivo after dinner at habourfront centre . Then continued to bishan (junction eight) to meet limying's da yi . She lectured us , ok not really lecture but talked to us about how it wasnt good to go for this kind of partying and so on .

After that we went to khatib to buy cockles cause rebecca have a sudden craving for it . No cockles so we bought lala . There was stingray so we bought that as well , then i bought char siew fan followed by bbq chicken wings . Next we headed to the supermart to buy logan and ice lemon tea . So all in all , we bought lala , stingray , char siew fan , seven bbq wings , logan and ice lemon tea . Woo ! Proceeded to limying's place to eat our feast . Haha . Around twelve midnight , we finished our lala and stingray already and since we were craving for more , we went down again to buy another bigger packet ! Woo ! I wonder how much weight we have gained . Lol . Nyway after that rebecca and me practiced abit of dance and i went home at three plus in the morning .

Friday 29th May - Sunday 31st May:
DANCE CAMP !!! Woohoo ! Dance camp was FUN ! Yay . But i cried during the nightwalk cause i was so frightened . ): Come to think of it now, it was so silly ! Haha . Overall the camp was great . Less tiring then cls camp but equally fun . Haha . But i missed J so much !! So i was glad that camp ended so i could see you again . Awww . Lol .


Monday 1st June:
Today is Serenity's anniversary ! So everyone is supposed to work . Was kinda fun cause get to have free drinks and food . But J was mad at me and ignored me the whole time during working . Angry ! I didnt know he was angry but found out that it was cause i didnt replied him the whole day . Sorry ! Forgive me, it wont happen again ! Also, he asked me not to drink and yet he drank himself . Dots . I bet you're drunk cause you didnt even remember what you said . Tsk tsk . Well, J asked whether i liked another guy ! How can you ask that ?! How can ?! So SAD ! But i forgive you . Lol . I will always stay by your side de !


Tuesday 2nd June:
HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY BABY ! Haha . Love you lots . Mwah ! Thanks for that sweet letter . Sorry for being late and ended up we couldnt catch the movie . Still, it was enough just spending time with you . Lol .


Wednesday 3rd June:
Im sick ! You're sick too ! Let's get well soon ! Being sick sucks big time ! Ugh . Let me recover soon ! I dont want to go to heaven yet !



Weeee ! Zara and Me camwhoring in cls clubroom during briefing .

Thursday 4th June:
Camwhor-ed in cls clubroom again ! LOL .