Falling

Falling. In. Love.

I love the feeling of falling in love at the beginning. The first rush of blood to your heart that makes it pumps faster when you see that someone. The crushes, the infactuation and the obsessions that made you so not yourself. That feeling of wanting more, but yet "more" are actually the very little things to begin with.

That first feeling of excitement you get when he walks past. That flush of red in your cheeks when he leans close to you. That feeling of almost bursting into gazillion of pieces when he talks to you for the first time. That sweet sensation when your shoulders/fingers brushed against each other and when your eyes met for the first time. That electric shot you get when he smiles at you. *Oh gosh!* How your insides must've felt like a twister! How youre so nervous that you stumble every. single. time. whenever you talk to him. Always trying to make a good impression but often failing cause of "overdoing" it. *Laughs*

Slowly, you became from strangers to friends; from never knowing of each other's existance to somehow noticing of one another almost everywhere we go. As we take one step further into the friends zone, there are so many more chances for us to take. With your friends constantly pushing you to make the first move, the first time when he accepts your invite to lunch together, it makes you beamed with the hope of getting even closer. Then slowly, constant texts everyday became a routine. That moment when youre in the kitchen and you heard the message tone of your phone in the room, and that will be the only times you ran for anything. Every second of the day, you'll be waiting for his text and only his text will be able to lit up your day. Oh, just how easy it is to be happy and contented.

Through texts, and chats and occasional phone calls, slowly, youre starting to know him more and more. His favourite food, his favourite colour, how his laughter actually sounds pretty weird but thats just the way you love it. As you get to know him more, the more he gets to know you too. Yet, he doesnt stop talking to you even after knowing you. Guess youre not as repelling as you thought you are. So maybe, just maybe, there's this chance that he actually does like your personality?

Soon (hopefully), you plucked up your courage to ask him out. When he agrees, the night before your "big date", your whole closet would be dismantled just to find that 'perfect dress'. Planning every single detail of the date in hoping that he wont be bored and praying hard that you'll have so much fun, and maybe just maybe, you'll share that special kiss at the end of the day too.

Isnt falling in love a magical feeling? Its amazing how when you fall in love with that special someone, he seems so mysterious at first and you just wants to know him more. Yet, you may fear of what you will find out at the end. But as you unravel everything, you find yourself falling even deeper then you expected. Thats when you want more of him and cant get enough of him. Yet, even the simplest of things such as seeing him smile can make all those worries go away. And for the time being, you just wish you could stay by his side and see him smile every single moment. Just that alone, is enough to make you lose your head.

Im glad im one of the lucky ones who have experienced it. Im lucky that right now I have that special someone too. ((:

In my head

I love to create scenarios in my head. Doesn't everyone? I think everyone will definitely have a moment when they will imagine a scene that they hope will come true. But of course we all know they're just imaginary. If they really do come true, then we'll be psychic! Laughs.

Often when I'm alone - be it on the way out or usually on the way home - I will always daze off. That's when I will create all sorts of scenarios in my head. In one scene, I may be a singer, singing to a big crowd and in another, I may have a lil magical creature which is only visible to me. The absurd things I could think of. Laughs. But it's really amazing how some of them could become. Sometimes, even though you know it's unreal, you kinda hope that it will somehow come true. There's just this amazing feeling about creating scenes in your head that it always leaves behind a feeling of magic(?) I would say. Bits and pieces of your imagination and sometimes your dreams come together to form. And how special it is all comes down to your creativity(?) I guess.

Hmm. Don't know what I'm talking about either. Laughs. Sometimes there's just too many things going through my head all at once. If only I have this magical pen and notebook that could note down all my thoughts and feelings all the time. I'd bet it'll be damn awesome to read them.