Talentless .

That's how i feel of myself now . I need more practice !

Too many things to do , too little time for them . I afraid i cant cope . Had a strange dream the other day . It seemed so real that i woke up in tears . Cant really remember much of it though . Usually i would know that im in a dream but yet , this time it was so real . I can almost feel myself being pulled inside the dream that it was kinda frightening .

Why does everyone need love ? Nobody knows what love is and yet , they need it .

I think love is what makes us humane . Its easy to be loved but difficult to give love . I have seen family and friends get hurt by what we call love countless of times

in all my seventeen years . Yet , everyone still pursue it . Even me . Why is it that something so important to us can hurt us so much ? When someone you love leaves you , dont you feel that your life is re-arranged ? How many times could you re-arrange your life ? How many times must you re-arrange your life?

Report writing and presentation is boring ! Reports are annoying ! Lol . I wanna see my baby now ! Nyway , during one lesson of IO chem , we were shown the formula of 4-amino-3-ethoxy-2-hydroxy-9-oxo-3-pheylnon-7-en-5-ynoic acid . FAINT . But im not required to learn it . Phew . Haha . I wanna change my blogskin !

First of all , a HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY to miss tan ! Met up with liqing , weixi and shihui on saturday . Our (mostly shihui , qishan and me) main goal of the day was to head to clark quey to try the bungee thing ! Weee ! Waited for qishan to arrive , then all of us headed to the bungee jump place and bought tickets . NERVOUS . There were so many spectators looking and some of those trying the bungee thing were screaming ! BUNGEE TIME ! And it's over . Fast , fast and super shiok ! Haha . Heart feels as if it's gonna pop out . After that we went to starbucks to celebrate shihui's birthday and to eat the melted cake . Lol . Had a late late late dinner at kopitiam at central followed by camwhoring .

Went to town with J after that and bought tickets for the harry potter movie . Eat , slack , walk and finally its time for the show at 1.30 am . The movie lasted for 153 minutes and i rushed to catch NR3 but the last bus already went even thought the board said the last bus is at 441 but i reached at 435 ! Irritated . Stayed at J's house then and went home the next afternoon . Went for the first lesson of danceofcouse at studiowu . Love it ! Still preferred studiowu to oschool . Anyway sorry baby for letting you feel left out . I want you to know that i love spending time with you the most ! Haha .

A happy eighteenth birthday to baby ! Now you can go clubbing , buy alcohol , cigarettes , watch m18 movies and lots more ! You're 'chen nian' le ! Haha . Old already . You officially turned eighteen on 10 July 2009 ! I went for dinner with you and your family on friday and ice cream after that . YUM ! Celebrated with kaijie and clique on saturday as a belated celebration . But it was lots of fun ! Sorry to made you mad during the blindfold thing . Forgive me ! Haha . Oh yea , another birthday boy was yeehong . Happy birthday to you too ! Hope the both of you like the presents ! Shall upload pictures another time . Currently in the school now . Haha . Oh another thing is i've passed ALL my mst papers ! Woohoo ! Even got an A for IO chem ! Yay ! Congrats to me ! Haha . Shall end here now . Gotta go work !

Tneps a elohw noonretfa gnikab ekaceseehc rof ybab . I tndid tcepxe ti ot eb ecin tub ylerus sti ton taht dab thgir ? Lol . Tub eh dias ti saw 'neh nan ihc' . Gniraeh taht , ym 'nix ius el' ! Tnes mih emoh retfa ecnad ssalc no yadsruht ecnis retfa evlewt ti dluow eb sih yadhtrib . Detnaw ot yats htiw mih llit evlewt tub tndluoc ekat ti . Retfa gniees mih klaw hguorht eht etag , sraet yletaidemmi llef . Lol . Yhw ma i os ylisae truh ? Tnac dnats flesym .

Finally blogging ! Haha . MST week is finally over ! I think i can only pass one , hopefully . I will pray hard . LOL . Also managed to hand in my microbiology report on time . Rushed the report like mad on thursday . Slept at 8am on friday because of the damn report . Im so proud of myself for being so 'hardworking' . Tsk tsk . Haha ! Watched transformers the second time with J and friends on friday evening . Was so tired that i almost fell asleep in the cinema . Went to spize to eat after the movie and then home . Stayed home on saturday . What a good girl i am . Haha !

Met zara at lot one today to start on our ideas project . Have to go to the different cd shops and compare the service and stuff . Went to sembawang at lot one first . The staff wasnt very friendly . We have to ask the staff questions so that we could comment on their attitude towards the customers and it was kinda funny cause neither me nor zara know what to ask and we didnt have the guts to as well . And we were laughing so much so it wasnt even harder to perform the task . But we managed to in the end . Headed to town afterwards . The second stop is HMV . The staff there was so much friendier as compared to sembawang's staff ! Hmpf ! Lol . Then , the last stop we headed to is 'That CD Shop' . Woah ! I totally LOVE that cd shop ! It is so classy ! I love the ambience and every piece of music being played over the speaker ! The interior of the shop is also so damn nice ! I love every bit of the shop ! The staff was SUPER helpful and friendly as well ! Totally love it . I want my house to be as classy in future ! Woohoo ! Aha . Headed to starbucks after everything to do the powerpoint slides for the project . At around six , qin called and said he wants to go to agnes b at shaw house to alter an outfit . So i told him to come look for me at pacific plaza's starbucks after he went to shaw house . He arrive at starbucks near eight . Zara and qin were primary school classmates so three of use were all from south view primary . How cool is that . Haha . Went to eat dinner with qin at 302 later on and followed by home .

Didnt see J for two days already ! Miss him so much ! Haha . His birthday is this friday . Still dont know what can i do for him . Will think of something for sure . If it wasnt for the project , i could have met him today ! Ugh . Lol . Hope to see you soon baby ! Study hard for your tests ! Gambatte ! I adore you ! Haha !

Photos taken today :

Bored Security Guard :

Rocker zara! :

Music warms my soul! :

Zara's Blueberry Muffin :

My Croissant :

Supposed to be studying for IO chem paper tomorrow (later) but im like brain dead already . Lol . This whole week is MST week . Jiayou everyone !!! Hope everyone gets good results , praying for myself as well . Haha . Think i will flunk engineering maths and microbiology for sure . I cant believe i actually knew how to draw the bacteria murein for microbiology paper but i left the damn question BLANK . It didnt registered in my mind during the paper that what i've just memorised of the diagram was the bacteria murein . After zara told me it was actually the G and M thing , i practically almost wanted to bang a wall . Ugh . I should have just drew something . Six marks fly like that . Hais . Too little time was given for engineering maths paper and i think too much time was given for microbiology paper cause i finished the paper in like twenty minutes? when the given time was an hour . Haha . I'd better do well in IO chem tomorrow . The one and only paper i am confident(kinda) of passing .

Alot of things have been running through my mind . Im always thinking alot i guess . Im trying so hard to keep everything working that it leaves me so exhausted sometimes . I think im putting in too much effort , unneccesary effort that is . I shall let things move one step at a time from now on .

Oh yea , J is ill again . Hope he gets well real real real soon . Kan dao ni zhe yang , wo hao xin teng ya . He started attending his parttime course in NAFA yesterday . When school starts for him next week , it will be harded for us to meet . Everyone's getting busier and busier . Let's jiayou ba baby . Get well soon .

I am so exahusted . I hope i can rest soon . Everything is pilling up so fast . Let time stop please ..
I miss baby so much . Im so afraid i will become more and more demanding .