Cornetto

Cornetto ice cream . Remember this ice cream ? There was once when Cornetto came up with Cornetto Royale and it comes in five different flavours . Royale Chocoluv , Royale Blackforest Blossom , Royale Cookies & Sweet Dreams , Royale Tiramissyou and , Royal Miss You Berry Much . I've tasted it all , tried it all with ya . I have to say sorry to you J . Cause when you offered me the ice cream , i didnt know it would lead me to think of the past . I was stunned . I thought i was gonna cry . All memories dawned upon me at once . I thought it was long forgotten already . Now i realised that there were so many so many so many fond memories . And little by little , everything came back to me in all sorts of ways . Why is it so ? I simply couldn't understand . Why now ? I hope it will be forgotten again soon . But i can promise one thing . I really love you J . It's true .

A Masquerade

Ugly .

That's what the world is , that's what my little world is : Ugly .

Back when i was a kid , i used to think that the world is beautiful . Everything was so lovely . And at times , i even feel that i was beautiful , cause i was livin' in such a beautiful world . But everything was just a facade . Slowly , things began to unfold as i grew . The world no longer reflect a beautiful picture . As i grew , i find that everyone in this society wears a mask and everyone behaves so unnaturally . Everyone pretends to be someone they're not , be it pretending to be kind , friendly , "cool" or even fillial . It's like a make-believe world . It's not that all of us wants to pretend , it's because we have to in order to fit in to this society . Everyone is just so pseudo . Can't you tell that she's just saying that dress is pretty cause you think so ? Can't you tell that both of you are trying so hard to be "friends" and he's constantly trying to think of things to say so as to spare the awkwardness ? Everyone of us puts on a mask from the very moment we learn to think . Cause in thinking , we think of how we want to be . In our minds , we would say : "I want to be friendly ! I want to be outgoing ! I want to make alot of friends !" And so , we develop from there , putting on a mask to be the person we want to , but aint who we really are . It's like a masquerade .

Something interesting happened today . Had GEMs as usual and i had to do this group thing for my CA10 . However, since i wasn't friends with anyone in the class and i badly wanted to do "juno" ( cause i had been thinkin' of it for weeks ) , it was kinda difficult . Was asked by this girl named Thivya to join her and her friends ( Inez & HweeLeng ) as a group . Of course i was more than happy to accept . Then , one of them asked whether if it's okay with me that we do "juno" ! Wow ! Is that awesome or what ! It's like telepathy . Lol .

Dinner-ed with Shuqi at bpp and had my curry chicken . Yum ! Satisfied my craving . Walked around for a bit and home-d . I miss J a lot more recently - no idea why though . Lastly im overjoyed for having changed my blogskin ! Bored of the previous one . Cheers !

Im fooking( Credits to Zo ) sick again ! It's like my fifth time? since last year ! Good thing out of it is that i have 2days MC . Cheers ! Zhen Jie dragged me to the doctor yesterday . Haha . The doctor checked so long that it seems as if i have tons of problems ! Scary ! But the doctor was so good , gave me a discount . Heh heh . Usually i think it would be around 30 or 40 bucks but he only charged me 26dollars . Probably cause im so adorable ! Heh !

Once again thank you Zhen Jie for taking care of me ohh ! Owe you so much so much ! Haha . It's so awesome to have loving friends (:

Can't fall sleep at all so im posting at this hour . Having a major 'migrain' ! First week of school wasn't too bad . Got back all my papers and all was quite well done except for one . 3As , 1B and 1D- . Gotta buck up on my AE&E .

I won't deny that im feeling insecure . Hope you're sleeping tight now .

Woo ! Celebrated Jiaying's Birthday today at west coast park . And Siewchen was evil ! Haha . Today must be the most embarrasing day of my life ! Cant believe i actually carried EIGHTEEN balloons with SC while boarding the train ! Everyone was just staring ! Plus those balloons keep hitting people and there were constant apologies made . Tsk tsk . But it was kinda fun . Haha . I want eighteen balloons for my upcoming birthday as well ! *Im hinting all of you guys . Thank you .*

After street jazz today , went to lucky plaza with WX to shop for this cologne for her dad . Yay ! Felt so much better after knowing that i didn't over-react over a certain matter ( cause she said she would definitely react like me if it happens to her ) so , yay ! Agreed with her that WH was better in terms of " hong-ing (pacify-ing) " . I almost forgotten about the huge lollipop i received if she never reminded me . Think its diameter was around thirtyplus-cm . Also received a reindeer chocolate lolly during x'mas and a heart-shaped lolly for valentine's . Was really super sweet and touched . Plus the heart-shaped lolly was really nice even though i took days to finish it cause it's quite big as well . Lol . All those little things really did make me happy cause afterall im a girl . Im glad at least i had these little moments before .

I really wish i was a kid again . At least hating boys was so much easier than loving them .

2010 is here ! Not a good thing for me definitely ! Cause im already feeling old ! Gonna turn eighteen so so soon ! NOOOOOO .. Nyway celebrated new year's eve / new year with a barbeque at bukit purmei with kaijie and clique . Quite fun actually but at some point i was so tired as i woke up early for work on the eve . Initially was upset cause i was supposed to meet my girls but they didn't have the mood to go out and thus the outing cancelled ! But i had a sleepover at shuqi's house on new year so they're forgiven ! At least for shuqi's sake . Haha . Miss my girls so much ! Nyway made some resolutions for the new year and hopefully i could follow them !

One . Score good grades .
Two . Repay my debts !
Three . Save money !
Four . Be more understanding .
Five . Find someone who can pamper me ALOT .

Saw Hy the other day and dont know what was it that i felt . It just feels so strange seeing him . Wont deny that he's definitely more good-looking but he's still making tons of excuses as usual . Btw , i know you don't want me . But i just can't let go for now . Give me time , i promise i'll let it go , but slowly of course . I know it sucks for you now . But i really appreciate that you'll be patient . Im sorry but i can assure you that im trying to let go right now little by little , just like this instance .