Tuesday, August 31, 2010

"Baby dear can't you see. This girl you see aint the girl she is. She aint really that bad, just emotional at times. Please do understand her wont you, cause only you could save her. Help her find herself once again. Let her smile like she used to before. You've helped her before havent you? So just help her again wont you. I've seen that brightest smile of hers. I've seen it only when you're around. Treat her nice like before. Give her candies to make her sweet. Dont give sour lollipops or she'll frown. And frownin aint a good thing you know. So make her sweet all over again. Just like you used to. Sprinkle sugar all over her. Give her chocolates so it'll melt in her. Give her flowers so she'll smell sweet. Take her out where there's fresh air, and where there's fresh air, you'll be as fresh as can be once again. When all these things have been done, you'll see your sweet baby girl once again. So open that heart and forgive her. Cause i know you will."

Dated 8th August 2008 .

Sunday, August 29, 2010

State Of Mind

Tell me the reason for insecureness . Why is it that people feel that ?
I want to go back . I want to forget everything .
I want to just bump my head, and not remember a thing .
Its funny how nobody knows what love is . How no one can exactly define love .
In truth , till this moment , i've never ever regretted the decisions i've made .
Yet , also at this very moment , is the first time i've ever regretted making this choice .
Ever since the start of my 17th year in this world , nothing has been smooth .
NOTHING .
I never thought growing up meant having so much responsibilities .
If i knew , i never would have let myself grew .
If i knew back then , i would definitely stop this madness when i was still a child .
If only .. But , its too late .
I cant go back . Yea i know . I can only hope all this madness go away soon .

On my birthday back in feb this year , although its long passed ,
i couldnt help thinking of the wish i made every single day .
I wish upon the brightest star that ever shines ..
"Please please let me be in a fairytale ."