Last day of 2011.

It's the last day of 2011!

Finally im blogging.

Okay so following the events of my previous post, there have been alot of happenings.

The most important and prominent day of this month would of course be Christmas.

I would say it was an unexpected Xmas eve/ Xmas. But nonetheless, i had a lovely time.

Xmas eve was spent with Ly, Reb, Joshua, Arron, Ian, WeeChuan, SoonLai, Clement, Melvin & Xinghan.

Totally unexpected. Laughs. But they're an awesome gang so im grateful to them for letting me join their Xmas!

Xmas itself was spent with my D.

Went to Cityhall and took lots of pictures. Even though it was simple, it was still awesome.

The simplest things are often the best things as they say. Oh yea and he got me a beanie!

Totally a Xmas gift i would say. Will definitely wear it. ((:

Also, had Xmas exchanges with my girls Nu, Jose & Bren, as well as with Zee, Ruby & Zoe.

Awesome time spent with both of my groups of girls and appreciate and love the gifts lots!

Today would be the 93th day since D confessed to me.

Also today is the last day of 2011.

Time simply passes too fast. It doesnt even stop to let us catch our breaths.

"To be more optimistic, become stronger & more independent, 

and lastly i hope to pay off all my debts !

But most importantly "i wanna be the girl who didnt give a heck about guys, when her friends & freedom was everything she needs .""

That was my resolutions for this 2011! And im ashamed to say i didnt complete all of them. Laughs.

Alot of things have happened this year. From good things, to bad things, and to worse things.

Hearts have been broken, hearts have been healed etc.

New friendships have formed, old friends have come together again.

New relationships have begun, old relationships have been remembered.

It's maddening to see time pass by so darn fast.

And here i am, always wishing that some day, time stops for all us during our most happiest moments.

We've all grown, we've all aged, we've all created memories.

It's amazing to see how time changes all of us.

I know i've tried to stop changing and that is totally unacceptable.

Plus obviously it cant be prevented. Laughs.

So for the new year, my new resolutions would be to accept change, to embrace it, to be more optimistic, to be more understanding of others, to accept myself more, to make a difference. I really wanna be happy. And i got a feeling i will be. 2012's gonna be awesome right?!

December Baby

Its December Baby.

Got sick come December 1st.

Means i got sick the week before MST.

What a nice timing, not.

High fever and was pretty sure i lied in bed 90% of the time.

Gotta thank D for taking care of me.

Even though he kinda annoyed me at the start but yea he's learning.

He'll get better taking care of me.

(Y) Laughs.

MST's are over!

Guess Barry kinda motivated me to study this time round.

Otherwise i'll end up mugging till the very last minute.

I would say im proud of myself.

And i know i'll definitely need not worry about my results.

At least for 2 of my papers.

Holidays are here.

Started off badly. Hope it ends great though.

Have been in and out of my moods since yesterday.

Bad bad bad bad bad. Sigh.

Dislike it when im feeling/behaving like this.

Screw my moods man. Serious max.

Was kinda disappointed with some stuff.

Shant continue further on it.

Aint gonna dwell on it. I'll be fine anyways.

Christmas is approaching.

Cant wait for it.

Christmas really is an amazing holiday.

Spending christmas with my girls LY & Reb (counting down from eve that is).

Initially thought i'll be counting down christmas with D.

Guess not.

Saw his friend's text. It was by accident though.

Didnt want him to reject his friends.

So i changed our plans instead.

Think he'll have more fun with his friends instead yea.

Pretended that i didnt know anything of course.

Dont wanna make him feel bad.

But cant say im feeling good too.

Laughs. The ironic stuff that i always do.

P.S. Im sorry that i put pressure on you. 

Was just too used to having J telling me things all the time. 

We'll compromise and learn together yea. ((:

I just wanna be happy. Why is it so difficult?

Awesome November ((:

November's coming to an end. Im gonna wrap up the month of november with a post since its so awesome! Many events occurred in Nov. Basically, most of my girls' (as well as barry's) birthdays fall on this month. And hell my expenses skyrocketed like !@#$%^&;* ! I must've spent like a few hundreds this month! Plus i've been going out alot lately too. Keep hanging out with my girls as well as D. But it was worth it. Awesome max. Okay this is gonna be a uber long post.

Lets start with 11.11.11. Thought that day was gonna end badly. Since it kinda started off like bullcrap. But thankfully it ended great. Well, it ended when i was in the midst of a movie actually. But it was awesome still. "Warriors" was fantastic! Love it max! Luckily D wanted to catch it. Otherwise might'd pass on a great movie. Spend the evening till night at vivo. Wont deny that memories rocked me up when i passed by serenity. Cant help it man.

Oh yea. 10.11.11. Ikea-d with my lovelies Nu, B and Jo. Met up to celebrate Nu's 19th bash. Another awesome catch-up. But seeing how Nu and B are so focused on where they are right now, how they both know what they want in future, and how they're like studying and being so busy and all in their respective uni-s just made me kinda envious. Right till now, i still have no clue what i wanna do in future. I really hope i can further my studies for the time being. Thats my goal so far. Praying hard it'll happen.

22.11.11. Its our 1st month. Happy 1st Monthsary Babey D! Time really pass too fast! Even though no gifts were exchanged and basically, the whole day wasnt spent with you, at least we got to see each other at night and the night before too. Awesome nonetheless. Blamed myself for forgetting the previous week and put schedule to work on this day. But still met up with you after work at 11plus. Gave you a letter and glad to see you love it. ((:

26.11.11. Its your birthday D! Youre finally 19! Omg. I feel so old saying that! Slept over at your place cause we wanted to wake up early to get brunch. But failed to do so! Ended waking up in the afternoon and went over to the rail mall super late to have our lunch. Like 4plus late! Ate at this cafe called crefele cafe or something. Whatever. Laughs. Awesome beef burger and cammomile tea i had. Then you have to head off to have dinner with your fam. Afterwards, we met up again for icecream at island creammery. After icecream, we went searching for 24-hour coldstorage just cause i wanted my bacon bits. Laughs. And it was our first time grocery-shopping. Funny like shyt. Bought junkfood as expected then headed back. Damn awesome! Laughs. Oh yea. Bought you a burberry touch fragrance set with the shampoo. Hope you love it. Also baked muffins for you. Appreciate it much that you attempted to finish all of it despite it being infested with ants before i gave you (I cleared the ants of course). Youre too nice! Hope you love it too though!! ((:

All in all, D kinda made November better with his awesome-ness. Laughs. Glad to have him by my side. Really needa thank him for his understanding and all. He made me smile and laugh too many a time. Thank kew D super much!! And for tolerating my horrid moods!

P.S. Sorry I read your blog, J. Cant help it. I still do wanna know how youre doing and all. Didnt mean to flare at ya. Im glad you have Bel with you now. At least there's someone who can listen to you. Take care lots yea. I didnt answer you cause i couldnt say yes. Couldnt give you false hopes. Not cause i hate you.

11.11.11

Today's 11.11.11.

They say its like super special. Maybe it is.

But i feel that its just another day.

Cant sleep. So im blogging right now. 

Its just one of those nights whereby im feeling moody again.

Twitter, tumblr, and facebook has been spamming on this day.

Everyone's like "Let me make a wish."

If i would make a wish, all i sincerely wish is to be happy.

And to forever be smiling. Even after i die i wanna be happy too!

Tsk. All these negativity from me again.

Anyways, i'll go with the flow.

I of course wish i won't spend this day in vain.

It started badly for me. Kinda teared just now.

Aint sure why recently very easily affected by my surroundings.

Damn max. Laughs.

But 11.11.11 just started badly for me.

I really dont wanna spend today like bullcrap-ly man.

Even if its by myself, i wanna be doing things that i love or enjoy.

So needing icecream right now.

Painted my nails just now. Looks like SHYT.

Whatever. I love my masterpiece still. Laughs.

Sincerely crossing fingers that 11.11.11 wont end badly pretty please.

Argh. I just wanna see you.

Please kiss my moods away. Put a smile on me will you.

It's November Already

November.

How fast time passes. Before i know it, it's already near the end of the year. It seems only like yesterday when i  was wondering how im gonna spend the new year 2011. It was only a while back when i was thinking how stagnant my life was and how i crave excitement. Now, i've got my wish. Won't ever sprout such nonsense ever again! Damn. I won't say i aint happy right now. Cause i am, with D. But guilt's eating me alive at the same moment. Nightmares every night have made me afraid to fall asleep. Every day i'll wake up with my head throbbing. It just sucks. Sigh. If only things could be easier. Doctors should invent this "Letting Go"-pill totally. Whereby you pop one into your mouth, then within hours, your feelings of reluctant-ness, your feelings of sadness, unhappiness and whatever, would all be washed away. What can i say, only "Im sorry J."

November.

School term has come into its mid. Work load has been piling up. MSTs are just around the corner. FYP has just started for me. Damn. But procrastination is still on-going. Tsk. This bad habit has gotta stop! *Cross fingers* Imma work harder this semester. I will promise myself that for sure.

November.

A month of too many birthdays. All my lovelies having their birthdays altogether this month. Why why why?! Made me so darn broke every year at this time! I neeeeed like money pouring from the sky! Right now!! TSK!  Laughs.

November.

Please be good to me. You're one of my favorite month. So be awesome will you!

Still October

Its the 18th day of October. Time passes so fast. Before I know it, school has started. The second day of school has passed and so far so good. It started off well and ho-hum-ly. Has reached school in time for these two days. Im determined to change my tardiness! Hopefully its not for the first few days only! Crossing fingers! Class wise, aint have any class with 24 at all this sem. So am kinda sad cause couldnt be in the same class as my friends anymore. But oh wells, no one to blame but me. But thankfully share my core classes with Mich & Zo. Still have company! Plus im having classes with Kj, Arron & Ian too. Awesome!


Hmm. Decisions decisions decisions. Am not myself lately. Aint sure what im doing either. Im greedy and selfish. I know myself best. I just wanna protect myself. Simple as that. Wait, no. I just wanna be happy. Why cant happiness be easy? Why is smiling seemed to be the hardest thing to do so right now? Keep smiling Cecilia.

October

October.

So it's kinda late to post about the start of October but I DONT CARE.

September has been hell lot of happenings.

Some good, some bad.

Hopefully October would be good to me.

I have always liked October. So let it be good please!

School's starting in Oct too.

I really hope October would be kind to me.

Have been feeling slightly moody since the start of Oct.

May it just be the starting phase and would pass over soon! *Prays*

May October be an awesome month.

Family

Family.

The dictionary tells me that it's "a group of individuals related by blood, marriage, or adoption". But what does it mean to you?

Today, my sister and I went home together. And as usual, we talked. She told me I was fortunate to have my mom. I wanted to tell her, she's yours too. But I didn't. She told me, people often ask her, "You seem to dote on your sister quite much." And every a time, she will always answer "That's cause I only have one sister." That touched me.

My family ain't what you called a perfect family, nor is it a broken or dysfunctional one. It's just sorta complicated. My sister's a half-sister. Her parents, which is my dad and her mom, divorced. Then my dad married my mom and came me and my brother. My sister's mom then migrated to France and had 3 boys. My parents ain't what you called a loving old couple. They no longer share the same bed together and of course, don't have sex anymore. I'm guessing they're still together cause of us kids.

I won't exactly say I'm close with my family. But I'm not exactly very distant with them either. I do talk and share things with my mom and my sister. Mostly about friendships and relationships stuff. Afterall they're older and surely know these things better right? I guess I'm proud to say the girls in my fam are quite close, to a certain extend that is. I do love my brother too of course. But he's a stubborn pain in the ass most of the time. I think my brother tend to confide in me more than he does to the rest of the fam. Prolly cause our age's closest. So I could relate to him better. I'm really happy about it of course. Simply enjoy teasing and hugging him all the time. But he's too bony. Ain't nice to hug at all. Tsk.

So exactly what does family mean to me? I guess I could say that they mean the world to me. Cliche, but true. And even though my fam ain't exactly the most perfect family in the world. They still mean the world to me. Even though I'm not a home-person or a family-person, family's still first. I just hope my fam knows that. Laughs. One day, I hope we'll be the closest family ever. Whereby secrets could be shared. Whereby problems could be shared. And love could be felt. One day .. ((:

Hurt

A confession was made to me, just hours ago. Not an "I-lied-to-you-before-and-Im-telling-you-the-truth-now" confession of course. A sorta love confession? You know, I really really REALLY suck bad at handling this sort of things! Especially letting one down. Worse still, I don't even know what to feel. So freaking confused right now. On one hand I wanna let the other party down in the least hurtful way, yet on the other hand, Im afraid of rejecting cause I seriously don't wanna stop us hanging together. How fucked up man. Honestly. *Sigh* Ruined a night's of sleep because of this matter. If only Im the typed of girl who didnt think so much of other's feelings. If I were more colder, then I wont be this frustrated. Damn. Im so afraid of hurting people, because I keep having this mentality that if I hurt other people, somehow I would get hurt tenfold back one day! It's like this karma thing man! So I really don't wanna hurt anyone. )): AHHHH! I don't even know what Im typing. Jumbled up feelings FTL. Why was I oh-so-stupid to not notice any signs! If I could see these signs, at least I could've distanced myself away from you. Then you wouldnt have the courage to confess. And I wont be feeling like shyt now.

On My Mind

Has anyone ever came to a phase whereby you have no clue of whats your next move. And at every single moment, you don't know what you're thinking, or feeling; cause your feelings are just so jumbled up. It's like you wished something could be done, and you want to do something. Yet, you have no idea what to do, or where to start. And when you finally decided to make the first move, you're afraid of making the wrong move again. Then, you'll think twice, and you're back to square one. It's a shitty feeling, when you don't know what you're feeling. Or when there are too many feelings altogether inside you. Does this happen to most of the people? Or is it just me?

There's this issue that's been on my mind recently. Yet I can't do no nothing about it. I wished I had the initiative, but I'm afraid at the same time. Afraid that I'll get hurt again perhaps, if I made the wrong choice. I wish someone could tell me what to do, what to feel, what to stop doing, and how to protect myself. I'm getting more and more timid as life keeps giving me obstacles. This sucks. Ain't I supposed to grow stronger?

P.S. I wished you could read my mind. How cool would that be.

I Always

I always

create scenarios in my head, that will never ever happen. I will always start to imagine a scene, and the scene just flows like a film. Then my mind just wanders. I don't even try very hard to create these scenarios. It just happens. I think of the most absurd situations, then just plan out in my mind just like that. It's just crazy. Sometimes, I even convince myself that it could happen. That's just funny. Laughs. If people could read my mind, I think they would surely laugh their heads off. I think I'm just crazy at times. But it'll be so cool if these things really did happen. I wonder if anyone's like me too ?

A 2011 Summer/Holiday

What a holiday! Awesome-est holiday i think i've ever had since the start of poly!

Though hols have not come to an end, it's no doubt the highlight of it is the BKK trip!

Totally miss my ladies! Went for a shopping spree in Bangkok.

Trip was for 5d4n. Its my first going overseas with friends and totally didnt expect it to be this awesome.

Went with Shihui Danhui Weixi & Leemin. ((:

Bangkok was definitely so much better than i expected.

Lucky im not vey big size so many of the clothes were able to fit me!

Awesome shyt! Means that i could buy ALOT of awesome clothings! Laughs.

Was glad that no conflicts occurred during the trip. All peace man. (Y)

Am reluctant to return to Singapore. But money was all spent.

Gonna miss having to wake up to Shihui in front of the dresser dolling up and being able to walk to Danhui Weixi and Leemin's room all the time and disturb them!

Camwhored ALOT with Shihui during the trip so the album's like 80% filled with only us?!

LAUGHS.

Plus a BIG THANK YOU to Darren for "seeing me off" and for fetching me man!

Owe him super lots of favors. Damn! Him and his lil red car!

Overall this trip was AWESOME SHYT. ((:

Okay so havent been regular in updating since im always SO uber lazy.

Well worked in the ITfair again at the start of hols.

Couldnt say it went well but made new and awesome friends. So it wasnt that bad. ((:

Worked under Marriott Hotel for the mooncake festival as well.

Was quite fun to work with Su. A first for me to be able to be so open with a lesbian.

Kinda cool. She also knew a bit of palm reading and read my palm for me.

But after i heard what she read, like have phobia to get into r/s or get married man! Damn!

So yea, kinda had a packed hol since the start of it. Now its time for me to chill and relax only. Laughs.

Hope the remaining of my hols would be awesome max too!

P.S. Mtv's playing California King Bed by Rihanna right now. Awesome song! ((:

Update on Life

Havent blogged for uber long. Its august now and currently having my final examinations for the semester. I would really love to say its been a lovely few months since i last blogged but sadly, it aint the case.

Currently aint sure what my future plans are, nor do i have any clue on where to start. Seriously dont know what im gonna do after i graduate. But of course working is definite. I honestly hope that i wont get stuck in a small job post and have to like work all my life there. I really hope i get somewhere in life man. This life pathway thing really gets me. I really curse myself for not choosing a design course since i've always been an arts person. I love designing i guess. Sigh. Life's hard.

Am still single right now. And yea, i surprised myself either. Havent ever been single for so long. Being single was never my thing. Laughs. Yea but for once, i feel really awesome being single. For once, i do not have to worry about how to be the perfect girlfriend and how can i make my guy stay faithful and etc. I feel oh-so-relax! I can date, i can talk to guys, i can tell people im free man! Guess people do change.

Change is inevitable afterall. I always thought im the kind of girl who can die without a beau. But guess not.

Its May

Its finally May. May love and success be in this month.

Its funny how some people think my life seems to revolve around boys. Laughs. I cant be blame if guys wanna talk to me yea? But somehow, i really wished they would leave me alone. All of them.

Do you believe in pure platonic friendship between a guy and a girl? I know i dont. Yea, right now, maybe there may be friendships formed between a guy and a girl. But i believe that a guy and a girl arent able to form close friendships with one another. That is cause, there will always be sexual attraction getting in the way. Be it from the guy or from the girl, one way or another. At the end of the day, if a guy and girl are "best friends", someone is definitely in love with the other, or it could be both ways. If only sexual attraction wont get in the way. Then friendships wont be ruined. If only there's a switch button whereby we could decide when to turn the sexual attraction meter on or off.

Lately?

Its been way way waaaay long since i've last blogged. So many darn things have happened since Feb. First of all, my year end examinations, then comes my birthday, then ITP, then results, then end of ITP, then start of school - which is right now where i am. Where to begin. Everything is just so overwhelming.

Was kinda boring for march since nothing exciting nor interesting happened. Basically, its just work work and more work. I had my attachment at the airport at Nuance-Watson so practically, everyday's routine was just work and home. B-O-R-I-N-G. Heh.

Well, life's been kinda stagnant for me. No ups and downs for anything lately. I CRAVE FOR EXCITEMENT IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! Laughs. Its kinda a good thing for me. With what i've been going through for the past six months. Having been struggling with my emotions and feelings. This stagnant life is feeling for me. Well, at least i've been busy meeting my friends. Absolutely love them ttm! Love how we never fail to laugh our heads off when we hang. Awesome feeling. Sure would be fabulous if we could stay friends forever. It's just amazing how even though im not meeting them as much now due to being in different schools and courses etc, but somehow when all of us meet up once in a blue moon, the connection is still there. Its like, there will never be an awkwardness between us. And i love how amazing and comfortable we feel around each other. Will always love my girls! Im refering to Shuqi Yy Rosh and Ruonan btw. Heh.

Speaking of excitement, okay so come to the start of april, i met this reeeeally cute guy. Not exactly met but i sort of noticed him at work. Laughs. There i go again, being this hua chi girl. *Knocks the head.* But he doesnt seemed the relationship kind of guy so oh well. Too bad. Heh. Right now, i just wanna enjoy being single. For now, i just wanna focus on pampering myself first. Im gonna be oh-so-fine.

Oh did i mention i bought 200plus worth of makeup from MAC and Bobbi Brown? Laughs. I couldnt resist buying so much cause they were so darn cheap cause of the tax free prices PLUS the 25 percent staff discount! *Screams!* Thats the only thing im gonna miss from working at the airport. THE PRICES. Laughs.

Its February .

Events after events for the month of feb . First there was CNY , then there's taylor's concert , followed by Valentine's and finally , the arrival of the dreaded exams . Cny was not bad this year , not bad at all . Collected quite alot but unfortunately , i'll have to say all those money didnt belong to me . ): Then there's taylor's concert . It was really awesome ! She's freaklishly tall ! 179 to be exact . She's really quite cool . Love her even more after the concert . She sings not bad indeed .

Next its Valentine's . Well , i had an unexpected valentine's day . Plus an unexpected valentine's gift . From an expected someone . Spent valentine's day with J and his polyfriends AND their dates (which are their respective bfs & gf) . We had steamboat and initially , i didnt wanna go when J asked me but im glad i did . I had a nice time with them . They're all really nice people . But they thought i was "dao" . Which i wasnt in fact , that was probably my way of being shy . Laughs . A really unexpected gift from J too . He surprised me with a citigems necklace . 128 dollars . Since knowing him , its the first time he bought such an expensive gift to me . Well , it was quite expensive for him . I didnt get him anything of course since i didnt expected a gift . Well , i could tell he was a teeny disappointed with me going empty handed but you cant blame me . When we're together , it was always me with the gifts and never him . So it was totally shocking of him to give me anything . Anyways im real happy to receive it . I promise i'll get him something in return .

Now exams are around the corner . In fact , tomorrow's my first paper . DAMN ! And i havent start studying . Cries ! Anyways good luck to myself and to everyone who's hating the exams ! Its gonna be over sooon ! Then its time for my birthday . Heh .

P.S : I hate how i always falls for the guys who will never love me back . It's really hurting . How i wish i didnt know how to love .

I Will ;

I miss you .

I WILL FALL FOR A BOY WHO WILL ;

* Stand out in the rain with me .

* Cook with , or for me .

* Let me sing along to the radio .

* Keep surprising me .

* Watch movies with me on lazy days .

* Remember the little things .

* Help me face my fears .

* Start play-fights with me -

with water , or food , or pillows , or anything .

* Write me post-it love letters .

* Always say what's on his mind .

* Let me wear his clothes .

* Shut me up with kisses .

* Call me things like darling , not babe .

* Hug me and say , "No , you're not ," when i say i'm fine .

* Treat me , sometimes , like a child .

* Treat me , sometimes , as an adult .

* Love me back .

P.S. I'm not amazing at anything , i'm just okay at everything .

It frustrates me more than anything .

"Old" Days

Okay i reelly reelly REElly miss the "old" days . Nostalgia's like overwhealming me right now .

Especially after chatting with WH these few days, i found that i really had many awesome and wonderful memories ! If i could give up everything and return to the past, i really would do so again . And most importantly, i wouldnt have wanted anything to change . I wanna relive these awesome days again ! I thought getting in to bbss would be a wrong decision but now, i know that its the best decision to be made ! I think i have the best schoolmates in the whole wide world man ! Laughs . Be it teary, laughing or angry moments, they were all wonderful . Every little detail of them . Ahhh ! I miss bbss !

Falling Hard .

Mood : Super fcuked up .

*Pardon my language*

Shouldnt even care . Damn . What was i to say ? What do you expect me to say ? What am i supposed to do ? Seriously . Am i supposed to feel happy ? Happy that you're telling me that you don't feel a thing when hugging her ? Laughs . You said you miss me , yea , so what . But you're with her right now . And so you said you wanna hug me . Yea , so what again ? But you're hugging her right now . And you said but i want you more . Laughs laughs laughs . Seriously how ironic can one get . Kay im super pissed off right now . Just wanna rant thats all .

You said "Sorry" . You told me you knew i were upset . And i told you "No im not" . I really wonder if you believed that . Or just pretended to . Honestly , i hate how everything you do affects me right now . It used to not mattered . But it does now . Damn . Seriously , DAMN . And almost , just almost , when you walked away , did my tears fell . But i managed to hold it in . It just aint worth it . I know i aint nothing compared to her . She's perfect ; im not .

Its funny how i always tend to fall for guys that i know will hurt me . Is this karma ? Laughs . Its not like im super ugly and lousy that no guys want me . Yet i always end up choosing the road where i know im sure to fall badly .

I wanna see you so bad .

Wed and Counting .

Love & Other Drugs
Caught this movie ytd, or should i say the day before with LY&R . Fab love Anne Hathaway ! She is so freaking gorgeous ! And her tits are simply nice ! Im not being pervertic here . Believe me, you simply cant take your eyes off her fabulous body if you saw ! Was in awe though that she actually bare everything in the movie . And such intimate scenes she took with Jake Gyllenhaal ! I really wonder if he was turned on when Anne was lying naked on top of him . Laughs . (Im not a pervert !) Anyway it was a nice movie and everyone should totally watch it ! I would say 9/10 !

On the same day, wed, had a string of emotions and blah blah blah, so i decided to do a manicure to pamper myself . Tried the new arrivals and my nails are even more beautiful than me right now . No im exaggerating actually . But my nails are nice ! But why do i feel that they've already cracked ! NOO ! I just had them for like a 1 day plus ! Havent tried pedicures before . Shall get them one day ! But somehow the thought of letting strangers touching my feet and the possibility of them smelling the odour of it simply shudders me .

One more thing : I hate LY&R for not being able to put themselves in my shoes and for scolding me till im even more stressed up !

Nah i dont really hate 'em . Laughs . I wanna thank them for loving me so much instead yea ! Sorry im always making y'all worrying ! I know im always in a mess ! I will learn to be stronger yea ! Really appreciate both of 'em . Will always love 'em ! *Pinky promise and copy that !*

PS :

It's only been around 3 weeks since i've snipped my hair and im soooo missing it ! It was soooo difficult for me to grow them man ! Cries ! Look at how long it used to be ! *looks at picure above* Alright so it isnt really super duper long but it's still very long to me ! When will i ever grow them back again ?! I miss tying up my hair !

P.P.S : Less than 12 hours and counting down awayyyyyy !