Pressure

Lately , many many things have been going through my mind . In GEMs class , Oringa told us to think about what are the different stresses that we are dealing in our life right now . And i thought the stress i had were just financially and maybe abit of family stress thats all . But alot of things has indeed happened and im really really really at my wits end . I have no idea where to start solving anything at anywhere . I hate to admit it but im really STRESSED out . D: There's friends , family , work , school work , dance , financial and relationship . Everything is just so overwhelming . It's during me nuts . I dont even know what my aims are and it stresses me cause everyone around has high expectations of me . Yet , i dont even know what am i going to do after poly . I neither wished to work nor go to university . Im like stuck here at this point and cant move forward . And i cant even do a simply thing like helping J with his model . Instead of helping , im being more troulesome instead . Great , simply just great . Im on the verge of breaking down . And i cant talk to no one cause i tried before but they simply dont understand . "Yes im only 18 and still considered young . What do i have to stress about ?! You simply wont know .."