On to February

Now on to February:

For the month of feb, its actually kinda hectic. Mostly i think cause exams are happening and most of my friends are graduating and are racing to finish the last lap of poly. That is, theyre busy with the last fyp presentations and reports. Its really saddening to see all my friends graduating together but yet i still have one last semester left. Dafuq seriously. But no one to blame but myself really. Anyways on a happier note, i finally finally FINALLY got to meet up and see my girls! Especially Elle! Omggg. Even though she came back to singapore due to an unfortunate incident, im really glad she came back and was able to contact us and meet up with us. It really touches your heart to see her being so strong and still being able to smile and laugh and all. Simply love her so. And i cant believe she actually sent me a long msg and wished me "Happy Birthday"! Too awesome can! Really hope that she can take care of herself and hope that she would have more chances to come back.


Also, of course who could forget that there's valentine's day?! Well, i didnt really celebrate valentine's day (as much as i wish i could) as both D and i were having our examinations and we spent the day mugging together. Ohh well. At least i got to be with him. Good enough. Plus he surprised me with a mug containing a teddybear, some sticks of hearts, flowers etc and *ahem*. Laughs. I did my part too by buying him famous amos cookies, d-i-y-ing a sorta Ed Monkton short stories-scrap book cause it was freaking expensive and i just "scrap-ed" the book through internet references. And last but not least, i did a sorta tumble would show thing by pasting the wall with stickynotes in the shape of a heart. I think it was pretty nice! Laughs.


The last phase of February would be examinations. My last paper falls on my birthday actually. Its not that bad, cause at least i dont need to spend the last hour of my paper mugging through the night. Especially on the day that comes only once in four years! So between my last paper and the second last, it had a week break. Instead of studying, i was actually already in holiday mood after the second last paper which wasnt exactly a good thing. *Yikes!* I went to jurong birdpark and the zoo with my girls and some on the first two days consecutively. Followed by going to the narnia exhibition at mbs with B. The narnia exhibition was quite fun actually, due to the wall of ice but mainly, it was for kids actually. It wasnt exactly a big scale event too. Movie-d with shihao on the following day. Caught moneyball starring brat pitt. The movie was good but wont say it was those memorable kinda movie. Met my girls the next day for dinner and i miss em so much! Havent saw them in like ages! Had a lot of laughs with them of course! Hmm. For my papers, studying/mugging were a drag definitely. But i guess with D, he kinda help motivate me to study. So thank you much!


Of course the most important event of February would definitely be my birthday! Bwahaha. But imma update on that again.


February hasnt exactly been a fabulous month. Kinda sucky if you asked me. Laughs. Had more quarrels/arguments with B more recently in Feb than usual too. Definitely not something i wanna. Also due to our hectic schedules and with school and stuff, it was so long since we finally could go out on a date once more. Definitely not my style. So had been coped up at home for waaaay too long. Made me moody being coped up facing four walls. I think i have a thing against walls man. Laughs. Anyways i promise i'll not try to walk away from you. I promise we'll always talk things out. I promise we'll solve every problems we have. I promise we'll get stronger yea. So yea, i owe you a lifetime of love, and you owe me a lifetime of it too.

During the Month of January.

I havent exactly posted in months now. And right now, there are too many things and happenings that i don't know how exactly im gonna summarize. So let's just try now.

First of all, January:

The only thing i could remember vividly in the month was actually just Lunar New Year. CNY was actually ho-hum. Like a yearly routine. Everything's just basically the same. Different thing would be that i have new clothes, new hair, and well, for this year, new beaut. Highlighted my hair bright red, and i totally love it! Was freaking relieved that my hair wasnt too spoiled even after furiously bleaching it! And D made a surprise appearance when i was doing my hair in the salon alone, even though he was kinda late to meet his friends in the west. Gotta thank him for that. During day two of cny, a last minute visit was made from D to my aunt's house cause i feel that its kinda basic courtesy (and important) that he should 'bai nian' to my elders. That being said, my aunt was acting on my parents behalf cause they were too busy. Oh wells. Turned out unexpectedly well! Pretty awesome that he actually could socialize with my aunt and her friends during our game of blackjack. And i could see the effort he tried to put in in being a good guest. Thank you D! But i guess i have to get used to some things for sure. Like taking food for myself and for D. Aint really sure if i'll ever get used to it. It always feels good to be taken care of ya know. Even if its little things like taking food for someone all the time. Guess i'll have a hard time adjusting to that now. One more thing, gotta thank D for fetching me down that night. I know how much he dislike me still caring for J and of course, me going down to meet him. And i guess i'll never get over the things i actually said to J. Maybe to some people, they dont feel that its bad enough. But believe me, more than half of the things i said really gets to me. I hate playing the bad guy. But some times, life doesnt exactly give you any choice. Standing there looking at you cry, was the hardest thing it was ever since we've know each other. Im sorry i broke your heart. But i hope you will understand my reasons. Even if you dont, i guess it doesnt matter actually. As much as i want to be your friend again, i know that be it in the present or in the future, it can never happen. Because what we once shared was just too strong. We will never looked at each other as a friend again. But J, i will always remember you. I will always love you. But im sorry to say that, im not in love with you anymore. Its someone else now who has my heart. Oh well, guess thats what i wanted to get off.

The New Year, 2012

It's 2012! Another new year, another year older, another year grown, another year different.
Countdown was spent at Marina area with D, Bren and Shawn.
The fireworks were awesome! Its so amazing.
It's like when the fireworks lit up, your fears also burst into the sky with it.
They're like millions of tiny colored stars that you hope can grant your millions of wishes too.
The first week of the new year has passed.
School has started and life has kept on moving on its own pace.

Life aint exactly easy now but I guess thats what makes us stronger.
I really will get stronger and not break down nor give up at the hint of my falls.
Here's hoping for everyone too. ((:



PS: THIS POST WAS SUPPOSED TO BE POSTED A WEEK FROM THE NEW YEAR. BUT I DIDNT REALISED IT WAS SAVED IN DRAFTS INSTEAD TILL NOW. GREAAAT. SHOWS HOW LONG I HAVENT POSTED. LAUGHS.