Saturday, December 25, 2010
X'mas !
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Happenings
Monday, October 25, 2010
Strength
I will be strong .
I dont wanna be taken for granted anymore .
It's not worth it and i know it .
I hope i will have the strength to walk through this alone .
I wanna break free from this so badly .
Friday, October 22, 2010
Random-ish
Everyday reach home lika take short naps ,
then cannot fall asleep at night !
Imma having such an abnormal lifestyle .
Eyerings are getting worser also .
FML .
Next time go out people will scream ,
"Omg ! There's a panda on the loose !"
Kay imma so lame .
I wonder if i should go back to punk .
Vey long since i dressed punk-ly ler .
Kinda miss those hardcore days .
So freedom man .
School's a drag .
Seriously damn sian .
Cannot pay attention in lectures at all .
Keep lika sleep sleep and sleep only .
Kay dontknow tmrw should wear heels to school not .
Scared lika will damn hiao ley . ):
Still thinking to whether should go audition .
Got people make up for me lika damn naise ley .
Hehheh .
I lika being pwetty .
Thursday, October 21, 2010
From Hols - School
First of all would of course be the "class chalet" but not my class of course ; Wanyi's or should i say 5A class chalet . Imma lika the only one who dont come from 5A . Starting i feel so lika an outsider ! But after awhile it was okeh . Chalet was fun . Especially the part when the guys got drunk and began doing stupid things . Laughs . Overall was not bad . I even went swimming in my hot bikini ! *Shy*
Then would be the outing with LY and Rebbie . Caught Charlie St. Cloud and Buried one after the other . Buttock cramp man ! Charlie St. Cloud was naise ! And i cried laa ! Laughs . Buried was a-okeh ley . I find it not bad but LY and Rebbie says it wasnt naise . After that we went to yellojello to visit K and S . Rebbie was so kewt , being so shy and all . Laughs again . Since non of us were good drinkers , we only drank lychee margarita, sex on the beach, shirley temple and an unexpected shooter blowjob . K made all the drinks and it was really naise (Y) . But was so guilty cause didnt expect that he would treat us . *Thank kew K !* Waited for K to finish work before heading down to Hans for late late late supper / breakfast and a lil drama between LY and the cab driver happened in between . Home-d after that and it was really an awesome outing . ;DD
The following days were catching movies and supposedly outings with Kaijie&clique as well as with Tracy&Mel . But didnt managed to eat the crystal jade buffet with Kj&clique, only went bowling afterwards with them but still it was really fun ! Hadnt bowled for a reeeeally long time . But outing with Tracy&Mel was cancelled . Hope next time would have a chance again . Then the last day before school starts, went shopping with my babe SQ . Spent ALOT of moneh even though lika didnt buy much laa . But still was naise ~
PS .
Havin' mixed up feelings right naw . Cringed at the word "ex" today when you said it . Have absolutely no idea what you take me for . I guess you could say im your biatch but not your lover . Imma fool .
Friday, October 1, 2010
Coolios & Fate
I went to find YW afterwards at cuppage . There were BY JG and Jer too . Then all of us went for k-session till dawn again . Haha ! Had fun nonetheless but i was really tired . Lol .
P.S.
It's amazing how fast everything changes . A while ago we were so busy falling in love . And a while later you're so busy falling out of love . And im so busy trying hard to do the same .Friday, September 24, 2010
2 Nights Out !
Looking forward to singing k till the morn with them again ! Love hanging out with them ! Even though it makes me broke . Haha . Triple thanks to yuwen for taking care of me much ! Haha . I feel like such a baby . Ahhh ! Lol .
P.S. Butterflies are a no no !
Saturday, September 18, 2010
He's Great .
Definitely have been avoiding things as of late . Or rather , since the start of this week .
A first for me : Getting drunk on sunday mn/monday am . LOL . Just a few hours before my chem eng paper i was drunk . Im in awe towards myself . Haha . Luckily the paper was do-able . *Heaves a sigh of relieve*
Have been spending everyday or rather almost every night ton-ing with yuwen . Have to apologise to him though . Caused him to sleep for 1-2 hours per day only before rushing to work . But still im grateful he's here for me . Also he's been treating me ALOT . Always the gentleman . Haha . Im thankful that he still sees me as a good friend . Even though i did 'betrayed' him before . Haha . I wonder if he kept my ring ? I still keeps his tortoise yea ? LOL . "You're like a pedophile for hanging with a xiao mei mei with me you know ! But im glad you're here !" (:
Thursday, September 16, 2010
With Thanks
Sunday, September 12, 2010
My Girls With Kisses On Top
Went out with my girls ; Sq, Yy and Rn . Rosh couldn't make it at the last minute (So sad!) . We went to marina square again as usual . Laughs . Its funny how we always end up at marina every time we meet up and its like once in a blue moon ! We ate pizza hut with many laughs in between and i truly missed my girls . It's always only with them that i could get to laugh so heartily . It warms me truly . (: But i received a call from TCC telling me i couldn't get the f1 job and i was SO upset ! That's like the only thing im looking forward to in my now "emotional period" ! Ugh . Totally ruin my mood man . But im with my girls ! They eventually cheered me up .
We caught resident evil 4: afterlife at suntec since the tickets were sold out at marina . And the maddening thing was there's a darn sequel AGAIN . Ahhhh ! I freaking wanna know the ending ! And their sequels are always so long ! D: It's a short movie but i really liked it . Rate a 7.5/10 for the movie .
After the movie we went to toys'r'us and explore . We found the barbies nowadays simply UGLY . I think my barbie was SO much prettier than the ones now laa ! LOL . All of the barbies now look like fillipino maids ! Omgawd . Hahahaha ! All of us kinda played like kids with the toys and it was really fun . At a point , i saw the plushies at a corner and caught my attention on the plush roses . It made me think back of the last time i was at toys'r'us suntec . I was with WH then . And i remembered coming to suntec with him after school in our uniforms . I remembered him asking me to wait at a bench while he went to "take some stuff from XY" . I really believed that he went to look for XY then and t.b.h , i was kinda upset he didnt asked me to follow him . Laughs . Finally he came back with his hands behind his back and appeared so shy . Then he surprised me with the plush rose from toys'r'us and made my day . Even though it was just a plushie , it was really sweet ! Back then , that was one of the lil things that made me love him even more . Now , we've both moved on and to hear him having a new gf after SO long , im truly happy for him . It's a relief to be able to smile at these memories now .
Nyway , then the girls and i headed to burger king at esplanade xchange . We were really poor by the end of the day and everyone digs up every penny she has and together we bought as much food as we could . I have no idea why but every time we're out , at the end of the day , we always have to find every penny we have and put together to buy something . It's kinda fun actually and we admit loving these kind of moments . Laughs . (: Home-d after that and to end the day , i simply love my girls . Im glad they're here for me now .
P.S : I never want to fall in love again .
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
♥
Dated 8th August 2008 .
Sunday, August 29, 2010
State Of Mind
I want to go back . I want to forget everything .
I want to just bump my head, and not remember a thing .
Its funny how nobody knows what love is . How no one can exactly define love .
In truth , till this moment , i've never ever regretted the decisions i've made .
Yet , also at this very moment , is the first time i've ever regretted making this choice .
Ever since the start of my 17th year in this world , nothing has been smooth .
NOTHING .
I never thought growing up meant having so much responsibilities .
If i knew , i never would have let myself grew .
If i knew back then , i would definitely stop this madness when i was still a child .
If only .. But , its too late .
I cant go back . Yea i know . I can only hope all this madness go away soon .
On my birthday back in feb this year , although its long passed ,
i couldnt help thinking of the wish i made every single day .
I wish upon the brightest star that ever shines ..
"Please please let me be in a fairytale ."
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Just Another Day
I've been rotting at home for 2 whole days ! OH-EM-GEE . Im gonna go crazy soon and develop into a 'couch potato' ! This certainly cannot happen ! Luckily im going out again tmrw and the day after and the day after after and so on . Phew ~! Nyway i've caught the killers with Kaijie and friends last saturday & also caught A-team with my most useful neighbour Junchi on tuesday . HAHAHA . Its been almost two years since we hang out . The last was on christmas in 2007 i believe . So freaking long ago ! Tuesday we finally managed to hang out and it was quite ok . Abit awkward at first but soon we were suan-ing each other again . Haha . The A-team was NICEE . Freaking funny . 4 stars man !
Cheehao's face is SOOOO jiao bin . Hahahaha ! Sorry babe . It was taken last saturday when we went out with Kj and friends . Yes , the day i caught the killers . WOOO . Only one reason i would catch the killers : ASTON KUTCHER !!! Hahaha ! He's SO hot ! Omg . His body makes me drool . Haha ! Im just kidding . I dont drool . ;DD Woo ! Below is another photo taken that day . I believe it was kaijie's and my favourite photo of the week ! Haha . *Shifty eyes*
Departure day . *SOBS* My hair looks so ugly . Ugh .
Im only crying cause of my hair . ):
J come back soon please ! Weixi says im so lost without you . And i believe its true .
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Everything's Wrong !
Monday, June 14, 2010
Missin' You
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
Pressure
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The Negativity
As usual , was late for school today . Missed the first lesson and was late for the second one . But , somehow i didnt want to attend class . I cant stand sitting there and listen for today . So i skipped the second class as well and headed to the library . Sat at a corner and continued my book . Then Larissa saw me and invited me to join them for their game of life . LOL . They just wont get sick of it . I guess life's always easier in boardgames . Then headed to class with them too after the break . Somehow , i feel as if im a loner right now . No Zo and no SC to look after me anymore . And that bytch makes me feel like slapping her cause she's acting like i dont even exist . Won't even reply when im talking to her . B-I-T-C-H . That's what she is . And no its not Zee . ;D
I want to be strong . I want to be independent . I feel that everyone's drifting away from me and im scared . Real scared . Im too dependent on others and this won't do . I've gotta teach myself to stand by myself . Cause no matter how good a friend , he/she won't support you forever .
Monday, May 10, 2010
Blinded Love
Aint if funny that before , when you like someone , you would think how wonderful he/she is . Yet after time passes and that fondness isnt there any longer you would start to ponder , exactly what do i see in him/her in the first place ?! It's strange isnt it . Before , his eyes were the most prettiest thing on earth . After , you wonder why his eyes are so weird that they're so separated from each other . LOL . Often many people would question themselves why had they fallen for that jerk/bitch . Many of us also love to 'promote' our bf/gfs when we're still together ; saying how he/she is so perfect or how he/she treats you so well . But after the break up , we will tend to diss our ex-es ; saying how he/she has so many bad habits or how he/she has such a terrible temper . How is it that one could say his/her ex is so bad and stuff when he/she himself/herself have so many flaws as well ? We often blame the other party about how badly they are as a bf/gf but yet , we dont reflect on how badly we are as a gf/bf . They say love is blind , and i truly understand why . Friends often ask "What exactly do you see in him ?" and i just want to say "Everything you don't ."
I love you J with carrots on top .
Friday, May 7, 2010
Going On In Life
School has been a pain . And im hating myself cause i cant seemed to remember anything that i've learned . And i've also learned that im not going to care anymore . I'll just let the two of them be as selfish as they can be and i'll just play along . I don't need them seriously . Regardless how they may stick together now , they arent good friends at all . Tsk . They're just always together cause of academics . At least i have good friends whom i can really count on .
Enough of all these negativity ! On a happy note , he and i are going SFSG . He initiated to look for me while i was with my friends ! Thats a first . Which made me really happy (: And we're meeting twice this week despite our hectic schedules ! Im really looking forward to hugging him . I simply adore these hugs of his . It makes my heart have this tingling warm feeling . LOL .
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Confused
Im so confused right now . Its clear to me that im erased from his life or im just a friend to him now . Im cecilia in his contacts , under friends in his msn and now , im single on facebook . LOL . I really dont know what to feel . I wont shed any more tears but i wont be able to laugh wholeheartedly either -- at least not for now . I need a hug right now . I want a hug from my mom . Cause at least i know that she truly loves me ..
Qin says to follow my intuition . But the thing is , i dont know whats my intuition so how am i going to follow it ? I reply too much on him sometimes . Its his fault though . LOL . Who ask him to promise to stay by my side forever ! And thanks Qin for saying that im someone significant in your life . You're the best .
Friday, April 30, 2010
Story of My Life
I thought you were ready to be
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Smiling Again (:
Lies
Random
School's been a drag . Year 2 is so difficult ! Lectures are going so fast ! Ugh . I want to dance dance dance ! I want to improve so much ! Shall practice on my own as much as i can ! Yea im randoming . LOL .
Looking forward to friday's date ! Iron Man 2 here i come ! Im just such a movie-fanatic . Tsk tsk . Haha . Looking forward to seeing him as well of course . Just miss him so . And yes , i cant believed im so 'charmed' . -.-
Monday, April 26, 2010
Desporado
When i hear his voice , i was just so overjoyed . I dont know why . I want to be in his arms so badly .
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Mao Dun
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
3rd Day
2nd Day .
Monday, April 19, 2010
Sfsg (:
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Amen
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Overwhelm
Its been two weeks since i posted ! Haha . LOTS of stuff happened in these two short weeks ! First of all is FO Camp ! Muttons(GMs) ! Yea it was hell lot of fun ! But sadly i have to leave halfway cause i had severe stitch or gastric ? Wasn't too sure either . LOL . Then it was UNIVERSAL STUDIOS or RESORT WORLD ! Weeee ! Stayed at resort world's festive hotel for 3 days 2 nights . Was awesome ! Went to universal studios on the second day and it was fun . Especially the mummy-ride . Cool ! Another cooler thing was that i dont needa queue ! Cause my aunt bought express tickets ! Which means i can go the express way - cut queues ! Haha ! The waterworld show was superb as well ! The actors and actresses were really really good . They could act and fall as if its the most common thing in the world ! But universal studios was kinda small , kinda like hongkong's disneyland but even smaller . Oh well , singapore mah . Lol . Last of all and the most important of all : J and C are one year old !!! "Happy 1st Anniversary Babe !" ;DD Thanks for everything ! You're really cute kay !
Hols are coming to an end so i've been constantly going out like everyday ! Im gonna miss SiewChen too ! She's transferring to RP . D: Had a 1B/24 gathering and sort of farewell gathering for SC too . Hope all goes well for her in her new course and new school ! And yea my post has a lot of exclamation marks cause its been so cool and awesome lately ! Lol . I've watched like four movies this week ! Clash of the titians , Confusius , When in rome and Rec 2 . And now , im heading out for my fifth movie - Youth In Revolt . *Winks Eye* Michael Cera ! And next week , 'Date Night' , here i come ! Haha .
P.S. Yes i love the word AWESOME !
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Awesomely Awesome
First of all , results were unexpectedly great as compared to last sem . However , due to the damn cumulative the overall wasnt that great . D: Secondly , prep camp was SO tiring . I was so tired that i could even fell asleep by the field while sitting down . Ugh . But it was quite fun . Looking forward to the actual camp tmrw ! Thirdly , im feel so guilty to my girls : Nuu , Bren , Jose , Qi , Elle , Gina , YingY , Rosh , Blaha ! Im so sorry ! Didnt know you guys bought a ipod shuffle for me ! D: Had to made nuu and jose went back to change to another gift . They wanted to give me the shuffle initially but hid it that time when i approached with my new ipod nano . Omgawd . I cant imagine how sad you guys must be ! And i can assure the shuffle/mp3 aint inferrior than the nano ! Cause its something from all of your hears ! Nyway Nuu and Jose went back and exchanged for a mouse + 10-in-1 styler for me . It's still awesome . Love you girls TTM ! You girls are the best gifts for my birthday ! Ok so it wasnt exactly summarize . What the heck .
Last but not least , we are turning ONE soon ! J + C are turning ONE ! But i know we cant spend that day together . Cause i'll be at RWS ! Wee ! Thanks hun for letting me enjoy the day with my family ! Shall celebrate with ya on Sat ! You make me smile . (:
My boy and girls are so awesome . They rock my world . xDD
Thursday, March 18, 2010
'Starstruck'
Had bbq with Kj & clique yesterday . Was quite fun and stuff but i think im too tired of late to be able to ton . Was sitting on the nice soft sand at night with peijun dozing off beside . And it was so beautiful . It was the second time that i was able to witness the clear night sky with so many stars gazing upon . I counted the stars and there were more than 60 of em . Simply awesome . Only the stars were out last night . There wasnt any moon to fight with em , which was nice cause i dont like the moon . :D The first time i saw such a beautiful sky was with Hy and i still remembered it vividly . I just simply love to sit under the stars and think of all the awesome moments . I hope J would one day have the patience to just lay beside me and admire the awesome seaview and stars with me with no word spoken but just peaceful smiles . And i sorta make up a song too - bout the stars of course . Sang it to myself as i was riding the bike alone of course . Haha . Thought myself was quite lame though but what the heck . No one know nor heard . Outing with the hornies' girls tmrw/later . Hope we have fun !
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
IT Fair
But i couldnt spend time with baby for the past four days ! ): Its been like wake up , work , sleep over and over for the past four days ! Cant even have a proper phone convo with J ! *Cries* Miss him so ! But wanna thank J and friends for the ipod nano ! Shall not say further about the colour . LOL . Also wanna thank Zo , SC , JY and Larissa for the headphones ! Simple love the awesome gold it is ! ;DD And of course also to Edwin for the funky specs . Haha . I have awesome gifts so im feeling real happy ! (:
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
B'Day
WeiXi ShuQi Brenduh YongQin Joker Jose Nureen Zo Zahirah Ruby DanHui LiQing [Smileys]
Edwin EngZhen GeraldKoh Jamine JianSiong JiaYing Kingsley Larissa LimYing Ramkee Rebecca SiewChen WeiYuan ZiYuan Zo'sTerrence [SP]
AdrianChua AnthonyKoh BeeHong ChunHoo EricNg Helena JiaYaoChng KaiJie KianHwee LayFang LiangMing WanYi YeeHong ZaiQiang [Kj&Clique]
Betrand HweePing JackSim JeremyHau JiaCong JiaYao Karthi Malissa Roshini WeeLiat YiHan [Bbss]
Aloysius Ong JiaMin JianWei JooBoon JunChi MingWei PeiFeng Richard WenXuanKor [Friends]
Thanks y'all ! And last but not least , special thanks to my huney J ! Thanks baby for the treat and the cake ! YiJiBang ! Love ya lots ! Also its our eleventh month ! Happy eleventh monthsary dear ! Hao Kai Xin !
BUT THIS YEAR HAVENT RECEIVED ANY PRESENTS ! Im hinting ! Lol . Just kidding . ;DD
P.S: Qin , i lazy to blog yet . Shall post your dedication another time ! Haha !
Saturday, February 27, 2010
My Loves
Had a wonderful time since ages on Monday with J . Even though it was just having a simple dinner date , i must say i havent felt so joyful since heaven knows when .
Outing with my girls today . It was simply wonderful and awesome ! Hadnt had a good laugh for a very long time . Im not the type of person who laughs easily so it is quite rare for me to be able to laugh so heartily . It was really great today . Enjoyed it so much . Simply love my girls . Hope we can stay friends always . Hope they would always stay this pure and innocent . Xoxo .
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Love in CNY
Chinese new year has been alright . Traditional as always . Nothing new . Just visting and eating all the way . But its sad that i still have upcoming exams ! Grrr . Why cant some tiger just eat the exam papers !
Nyway wore the lovely dress + heels that J bought for me on the first day of CNY . Lovely ! Didn't get to eat my kimpo's fabulous and most awesome once-a-year curry chicken that i always look-forward-to though . Cause didn't visit her house this year . That's the sad part . But the happy part is that at least i still have my angbaos . Haha ! Have to study now ! Good luck to me ! UGH ! Red is said to be my lucky colour this year so i'll publish this in RED !
Friday, February 12, 2010
Waste of Time
Everything is replaying again . Just that , its worse this time . At least i have so many wonderful memories then . But now , i can't think of one happy moment . Maybe one , when the story first started . Im tired . Real tired . I really wish i can just give up . At least it wont hurt so much . Actually it was all over when you replied " Kinda ." to " No feelings ?" . I just didn't want to accept the fact . Im not strong you know . I hate myself for being so weak . I know you're just deceiving me when you say you still love me . Im just deceiving myself as well . I just can't stop loving you . Because i can't forgive you . I never could . I thought i could get revenge . But i couldn't . And now , im in a worse state .
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
X Month
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Cornetto
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
A Masquerade
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Dinner-ed with Shuqi at bpp and had my curry chicken . Yum ! Satisfied my craving . Walked around for a bit and home-d . I miss J a lot more recently - no idea why though . Lastly im overjoyed for having changed my blogskin ! Bored of the previous one . Cheers !
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Once again thank you Zhen Jie for taking care of me ohh ! Owe you so much so much ! Haha . It's so awesome to have loving friends (:
Saturday, January 9, 2010
I won't deny that im feeling insecure . Hope you're sleeping tight now .
Sunday, January 3, 2010
After street jazz today , went to lucky plaza with WX to shop for this cologne for her dad . Yay ! Felt so much better after knowing that i didn't over-react over a certain matter ( cause she said she would definitely react like me if it happens to her ) so , yay ! Agreed with her that WH was better in terms of " hong-ing (pacify-ing) " . I almost forgotten about the huge lollipop i received if she never reminded me . Think its diameter was around thirtyplus-cm . Also received a reindeer chocolate lolly during x'mas and a heart-shaped lolly for valentine's . Was really super sweet and touched . Plus the heart-shaped lolly was really nice even though i took days to finish it cause it's quite big as well . Lol . All those little things really did make me happy cause afterall im a girl . Im glad at least i had these little moments before .
Saturday, January 2, 2010
One . Score good grades .
Two . Repay my debts !
Three . Save money !
Four . Be more understanding .
Five . Find someone who can pamper me ALOT .
Saw Hy the other day and dont know what was it that i felt . It just feels so strange seeing him . Wont deny that he's definitely more good-looking but he's still making tons of excuses as usual . Btw , i know you don't want me . But i just can't let go for now . Give me time , i promise i'll let it go , but slowly of course . I know it sucks for you now . But i really appreciate that you'll be patient . Im sorry but i can assure you that im trying to let go right now little by little , just like this instance .